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I was showered with so much love! My mother-in-law Susan and Molly co-hosted the sweetest, most perfect day. So many laughs, happy tears, and moments I’ll truly never forget.

I’m SO lucky to be surrounded by such talented, generous women.

I had a lot of anxiety leading up to this day. It was one my mom was supposed to be at, and I definitely felt her absence. But I also felt her there celebrating with us in all the hugs and excitement.

And I truly can’t say enough about Susan. To be marrying into Stryker’s family and have a mother-in-law who goes out of her way to make me feel seen, special, and supported… what a gift! She is a very special lady, and I know she’ll help guide me the way my own mom always did.

Just so much love oozing from my really big pores ugh 🤍

I was showered with so much love! My mother-in-law Susan and Molly co-hosted the sweetest, most perfect day. So many laughs, happy tears, and moments I’ll truly never forget.

I’m SO lucky to be surrounded by such talented, generous women.

I had a lot of anxiety leading up to this day. It was one my mom was supposed to be at, and I definitely felt her absence. But I also felt her there celebrating with us in all the hugs and excitement.

And I truly can’t say enough about Susan. To be marrying into Stryker’s family and have a mother-in-law who goes out of her way to make me feel seen, special, and supported… what a gift! She is a very special lady, and I know she’ll help guide me the way my own mom always did.

Just so much love oozing from my really big pores ugh 🤍

I was showered with so much love! My mother-in-law Susan and Molly co-hosted the sweetest, most perfect day. So many laughs, happy tears, and moments I’ll truly never forget.

I’m SO lucky to be surrounded by such talented, generous women.

I had a lot of anxiety leading up to this day. It was one my mom was supposed to be at, and I definitely felt her absence. But I also felt her there celebrating with us in all the hugs and excitement.

And I truly can’t say enough about Susan. To be marrying into Stryker’s family and have a mother-in-law who goes out of her way to make me feel seen, special, and supported… what a gift! She is a very special lady, and I know she’ll help guide me the way my own mom always did.

Just so much love oozing from my really big pores ugh 🤍

I was showered with so much love! My mother-in-law Susan and Molly co-hosted the sweetest, most perfect day. So many laughs, happy tears, and moments I’ll truly never forget.

I’m SO lucky to be surrounded by such talented, generous women.

I had a lot of anxiety leading up to this day. It was one my mom was supposed to be at, and I definitely felt her absence. But I also felt her there celebrating with us in all the hugs and excitement.

And I truly can’t say enough about Susan. To be marrying into Stryker’s family and have a mother-in-law who goes out of her way to make me feel seen, special, and supported… what a gift! She is a very special lady, and I know she’ll help guide me the way my own mom always did.

Just so much love oozing from my really big pores ugh 🤍

I was showered with so much love! My mother-in-law Susan and Molly co-hosted the sweetest, most perfect day. So many laughs, happy tears, and moments I’ll truly never forget.

I’m SO lucky to be surrounded by such talented, generous women.

I had a lot of anxiety leading up to this day. It was one my mom was supposed to be at, and I definitely felt her absence. But I also felt her there celebrating with us in all the hugs and excitement.

And I truly can’t say enough about Susan. To be marrying into Stryker’s family and have a mother-in-law who goes out of her way to make me feel seen, special, and supported… what a gift! She is a very special lady, and I know she’ll help guide me the way my own mom always did.

Just so much love oozing from my really big pores ugh 🤍

I was showered with so much love! My mother-in-law Susan and Molly co-hosted the sweetest, most perfect day. So many laughs, happy tears, and moments I’ll truly never forget.

I’m SO lucky to be surrounded by such talented, generous women.

I had a lot of anxiety leading up to this day. It was one my mom was supposed to be at, and I definitely felt her absence. But I also felt her there celebrating with us in all the hugs and excitement.

And I truly can’t say enough about Susan. To be marrying into Stryker’s family and have a mother-in-law who goes out of her way to make me feel seen, special, and supported… what a gift! She is a very special lady, and I know she’ll help guide me the way my own mom always did.

Just so much love oozing from my really big pores ugh 🤍

I was showered with so much love! My mother-in-law Susan and Molly co-hosted the sweetest, most perfect day. So many laughs, happy tears, and moments I’ll truly never forget.

I’m SO lucky to be surrounded by such talented, generous women.

I had a lot of anxiety leading up to this day. It was one my mom was supposed to be at, and I definitely felt her absence. But I also felt her there celebrating with us in all the hugs and excitement.

And I truly can’t say enough about Susan. To be marrying into Stryker’s family and have a mother-in-law who goes out of her way to make me feel seen, special, and supported… what a gift! She is a very special lady, and I know she’ll help guide me the way my own mom always did.

Just so much love oozing from my really big pores ugh 🤍

I was showered with so much love! My mother-in-law Susan and Molly co-hosted the sweetest, most perfect day. So many laughs, happy tears, and moments I’ll truly never forget.

I’m SO lucky to be surrounded by such talented, generous women.

I had a lot of anxiety leading up to this day. It was one my mom was supposed to be at, and I definitely felt her absence. But I also felt her there celebrating with us in all the hugs and excitement.

And I truly can’t say enough about Susan. To be marrying into Stryker’s family and have a mother-in-law who goes out of her way to make me feel seen, special, and supported… what a gift! She is a very special lady, and I know she’ll help guide me the way my own mom always did.

Just so much love oozing from my really big pores ugh 🤍

I was showered with so much love! My mother-in-law Susan and Molly co-hosted the sweetest, most perfect day. So many laughs, happy tears, and moments I’ll truly never forget.

I’m SO lucky to be surrounded by such talented, generous women.

I had a lot of anxiety leading up to this day. It was one my mom was supposed to be at, and I definitely felt her absence. But I also felt her there celebrating with us in all the hugs and excitement.

And I truly can’t say enough about Susan. To be marrying into Stryker’s family and have a mother-in-law who goes out of her way to make me feel seen, special, and supported… what a gift! She is a very special lady, and I know she’ll help guide me the way my own mom always did.

Just so much love oozing from my really big pores ugh 🤍

I was showered with so much love! My mother-in-law Susan and Molly co-hosted the sweetest, most perfect day. So many laughs, happy tears, and moments I’ll truly never forget.

I’m SO lucky to be surrounded by such talented, generous women.

I had a lot of anxiety leading up to this day. It was one my mom was supposed to be at, and I definitely felt her absence. But I also felt her there celebrating with us in all the hugs and excitement.

And I truly can’t say enough about Susan. To be marrying into Stryker’s family and have a mother-in-law who goes out of her way to make me feel seen, special, and supported… what a gift! She is a very special lady, and I know she’ll help guide me the way my own mom always did.

Just so much love oozing from my really big pores ugh 🤍

I was showered with so much love! My mother-in-law Susan and Molly co-hosted the sweetest, most perfect day. So many laughs, happy tears, and moments I’ll truly never forget.

I’m SO lucky to be surrounded by such talented, generous women.

I had a lot of anxiety leading up to this day. It was one my mom was supposed to be at, and I definitely felt her absence. But I also felt her there celebrating with us in all the hugs and excitement.

And I truly can’t say enough about Susan. To be marrying into Stryker’s family and have a mother-in-law who goes out of her way to make me feel seen, special, and supported… what a gift! She is a very special lady, and I know she’ll help guide me the way my own mom always did.

Just so much love oozing from my really big pores ugh 🤍

I was showered with so much love! My mother-in-law Susan and Molly co-hosted the sweetest, most perfect day. So many laughs, happy tears, and moments I’ll truly never forget.

I’m SO lucky to be surrounded by such talented, generous women.

I had a lot of anxiety leading up to this day. It was one my mom was supposed to be at, and I definitely felt her absence. But I also felt her there celebrating with us in all the hugs and excitement.

And I truly can’t say enough about Susan. To be marrying into Stryker’s family and have a mother-in-law who goes out of her way to make me feel seen, special, and supported… what a gift! She is a very special lady, and I know she’ll help guide me the way my own mom always did.

Just so much love oozing from my really big pores ugh 🤍

I was showered with so much love! My mother-in-law Susan and Molly co-hosted the sweetest, most perfect day. So many laughs, happy tears, and moments I’ll truly never forget.

I’m SO lucky to be surrounded by such talented, generous women.

I had a lot of anxiety leading up to this day. It was one my mom was supposed to be at, and I definitely felt her absence. But I also felt her there celebrating with us in all the hugs and excitement.

And I truly can’t say enough about Susan. To be marrying into Stryker’s family and have a mother-in-law who goes out of her way to make me feel seen, special, and supported… what a gift! She is a very special lady, and I know she’ll help guide me the way my own mom always did.

Just so much love oozing from my really big pores ugh 🤍

I was showered with so much love! My mother-in-law Susan and Molly co-hosted the sweetest, most perfect day. So many laughs, happy tears, and moments I’ll truly never forget.

I’m SO lucky to be surrounded by such talented, generous women.

I had a lot of anxiety leading up to this day. It was one my mom was supposed to be at, and I definitely felt her absence. But I also felt her there celebrating with us in all the hugs and excitement.

And I truly can’t say enough about Susan. To be marrying into Stryker’s family and have a mother-in-law who goes out of her way to make me feel seen, special, and supported… what a gift! She is a very special lady, and I know she’ll help guide me the way my own mom always did.

Just so much love oozing from my really big pores ugh 🤍

I was showered with so much love! My mother-in-law Susan and Molly co-hosted the sweetest, most perfect day. So many laughs, happy tears, and moments I’ll truly never forget.

I’m SO lucky to be surrounded by such talented, generous women.

I had a lot of anxiety leading up to this day. It was one my mom was supposed to be at, and I definitely felt her absence. But I also felt her there celebrating with us in all the hugs and excitement.

And I truly can’t say enough about Susan. To be marrying into Stryker’s family and have a mother-in-law who goes out of her way to make me feel seen, special, and supported… what a gift! She is a very special lady, and I know she’ll help guide me the way my own mom always did.

Just so much love oozing from my really big pores ugh 🤍

I was showered with so much love! My mother-in-law Susan and Molly co-hosted the sweetest, most perfect day. So many laughs, happy tears, and moments I’ll truly never forget.

I’m SO lucky to be surrounded by such talented, generous women.

I had a lot of anxiety leading up to this day. It was one my mom was supposed to be at, and I definitely felt her absence. But I also felt her there celebrating with us in all the hugs and excitement.

And I truly can’t say enough about Susan. To be marrying into Stryker’s family and have a mother-in-law who goes out of her way to make me feel seen, special, and supported… what a gift! She is a very special lady, and I know she’ll help guide me the way my own mom always did.

Just so much love oozing from my really big pores ugh 🤍

I was showered with so much love! My mother-in-law Susan and Molly co-hosted the sweetest, most perfect day. So many laughs, happy tears, and moments I’ll truly never forget.

I’m SO lucky to be surrounded by such talented, generous women.

I had a lot of anxiety leading up to this day. It was one my mom was supposed to be at, and I definitely felt her absence. But I also felt her there celebrating with us in all the hugs and excitement.

And I truly can’t say enough about Susan. To be marrying into Stryker’s family and have a mother-in-law who goes out of her way to make me feel seen, special, and supported… what a gift! She is a very special lady, and I know she’ll help guide me the way my own mom always did.

Just so much love oozing from my really big pores ugh 🤍

I was showered with so much love! My mother-in-law Susan and Molly co-hosted the sweetest, most perfect day. So many laughs, happy tears, and moments I’ll truly never forget.

I’m SO lucky to be surrounded by such talented, generous women.

I had a lot of anxiety leading up to this day. It was one my mom was supposed to be at, and I definitely felt her absence. But I also felt her there celebrating with us in all the hugs and excitement.

And I truly can’t say enough about Susan. To be marrying into Stryker’s family and have a mother-in-law who goes out of her way to make me feel seen, special, and supported… what a gift! She is a very special lady, and I know she’ll help guide me the way my own mom always did.

Just so much love oozing from my really big pores ugh 🤍

I was showered with so much love! My mother-in-law Susan and Molly co-hosted the sweetest, most perfect day. So many laughs, happy tears, and moments I’ll truly never forget.

I’m SO lucky to be surrounded by such talented, generous women.

I had a lot of anxiety leading up to this day. It was one my mom was supposed to be at, and I definitely felt her absence. But I also felt her there celebrating with us in all the hugs and excitement.

And I truly can’t say enough about Susan. To be marrying into Stryker’s family and have a mother-in-law who goes out of her way to make me feel seen, special, and supported… what a gift! She is a very special lady, and I know she’ll help guide me the way my own mom always did.

Just so much love oozing from my really big pores ugh 🤍

I was showered with so much love! My mother-in-law Susan and Molly co-hosted the sweetest, most perfect day. So many laughs, happy tears, and moments I’ll truly never forget.

I’m SO lucky to be surrounded by such talented, generous women.

I had a lot of anxiety leading up to this day. It was one my mom was supposed to be at, and I definitely felt her absence. But I also felt her there celebrating with us in all the hugs and excitement.

And I truly can’t say enough about Susan. To be marrying into Stryker’s family and have a mother-in-law who goes out of her way to make me feel seen, special, and supported… what a gift! She is a very special lady, and I know she’ll help guide me the way my own mom always did.

Just so much love oozing from my really big pores ugh 🤍

The sweetest lil bachelorette in La Paz with my fav gals. Thanks for making it so special 💕 @molly_tapp @kiomatsu151 @oh_nicolle @shay143

The sweetest lil bachelorette in La Paz with my fav gals. Thanks for making it so special 💕 @molly_tapp @kiomatsu151 @oh_nicolle @shay143

The sweetest lil bachelorette in La Paz with my fav gals. Thanks for making it so special 💕 @molly_tapp @kiomatsu151 @oh_nicolle @shay143

The sweetest lil bachelorette in La Paz with my fav gals. Thanks for making it so special 💕 @molly_tapp @kiomatsu151 @oh_nicolle @shay143

The sweetest lil bachelorette in La Paz with my fav gals. Thanks for making it so special 💕 @molly_tapp @kiomatsu151 @oh_nicolle @shay143

The sweetest lil bachelorette in La Paz with my fav gals. Thanks for making it so special 💕 @molly_tapp @kiomatsu151 @oh_nicolle @shay143

The sweetest lil bachelorette in La Paz with my fav gals. Thanks for making it so special 💕 @molly_tapp @kiomatsu151 @oh_nicolle @shay143

The sweetest lil bachelorette in La Paz with my fav gals. Thanks for making it so special 💕 @molly_tapp @kiomatsu151 @oh_nicolle @shay143

The sweetest lil bachelorette in La Paz with my fav gals. Thanks for making it so special 💕 @molly_tapp @kiomatsu151 @oh_nicolle @shay143

The sweetest lil bachelorette in La Paz with my fav gals. Thanks for making it so special 💕 @molly_tapp @kiomatsu151 @oh_nicolle @shay143

The sweetest lil bachelorette in La Paz with my fav gals. Thanks for making it so special 💕 @molly_tapp @kiomatsu151 @oh_nicolle @shay143

The sweetest lil bachelorette in La Paz with my fav gals. Thanks for making it so special 💕 @molly_tapp @kiomatsu151 @oh_nicolle @shay143

The sweetest lil bachelorette in La Paz with my fav gals. Thanks for making it so special 💕 @molly_tapp @kiomatsu151 @oh_nicolle @shay143

The sweetest lil bachelorette in La Paz with my fav gals. Thanks for making it so special 💕 @molly_tapp @kiomatsu151 @oh_nicolle @shay143

The sweetest lil bachelorette in La Paz with my fav gals. Thanks for making it so special 💕 @molly_tapp @kiomatsu151 @oh_nicolle @shay143

The sweetest lil bachelorette in La Paz with my fav gals. Thanks for making it so special 💕 @molly_tapp @kiomatsu151 @oh_nicolle @shay143

The sweetest lil bachelorette in La Paz with my fav gals. Thanks for making it so special 💕 @molly_tapp @kiomatsu151 @oh_nicolle @shay143

The sweetest lil bachelorette in La Paz with my fav gals. Thanks for making it so special 💕 @molly_tapp @kiomatsu151 @oh_nicolle @shay143

The sweetest lil bachelorette in La Paz with my fav gals. Thanks for making it so special 💕 @molly_tapp @kiomatsu151 @oh_nicolle @shay143

The sweetest lil bachelorette in La Paz with my fav gals. Thanks for making it so special 💕 @molly_tapp @kiomatsu151 @oh_nicolle @shay143

2025 was a year largely shaped by anticipatory grief and the fear of losing my mom. It was also a year filled with beautiful moments like celebrating Molly, her dream wedding coming to life and witnessing so much love around me.

What I know to be true is that great joy and deep grief can exist at the same time. One feeling can trigger the other, and honestly… it can be confusing to hold both. I’m incredibly lucky to have friends and family who remind me that it’s all ok.

I’m engaged (*screams*) and marrying the love of my life! We’re over the moon and so excited for the future ahead. Alongside that joy, I miss my mom and wish she could be here with me for these next chapters of my life.

Stryker took this photo of me holding our engagement flowers on NYE. While going through photos for this post, I came across the one of my mom holding flowers in almost the same way. It felt like a message from her saying that she is very much with me.

She always told me to trust the timing of my life, and I know she’s happy knowing she was right about Stryker alllll along 🤍🥂 🕊️

2025 was a year largely shaped by anticipatory grief and the fear of losing my mom. It was also a year filled with beautiful moments like celebrating Molly, her dream wedding coming to life and witnessing so much love around me.

What I know to be true is that great joy and deep grief can exist at the same time. One feeling can trigger the other, and honestly… it can be confusing to hold both. I’m incredibly lucky to have friends and family who remind me that it’s all ok.

I’m engaged (*screams*) and marrying the love of my life! We’re over the moon and so excited for the future ahead. Alongside that joy, I miss my mom and wish she could be here with me for these next chapters of my life.

Stryker took this photo of me holding our engagement flowers on NYE. While going through photos for this post, I came across the one of my mom holding flowers in almost the same way. It felt like a message from her saying that she is very much with me.

She always told me to trust the timing of my life, and I know she’s happy knowing she was right about Stryker alllll along 🤍🥂 🕊️

2025 was a year largely shaped by anticipatory grief and the fear of losing my mom. It was also a year filled with beautiful moments like celebrating Molly, her dream wedding coming to life and witnessing so much love around me.

What I know to be true is that great joy and deep grief can exist at the same time. One feeling can trigger the other, and honestly… it can be confusing to hold both. I’m incredibly lucky to have friends and family who remind me that it’s all ok.

I’m engaged (*screams*) and marrying the love of my life! We’re over the moon and so excited for the future ahead. Alongside that joy, I miss my mom and wish she could be here with me for these next chapters of my life.

Stryker took this photo of me holding our engagement flowers on NYE. While going through photos for this post, I came across the one of my mom holding flowers in almost the same way. It felt like a message from her saying that she is very much with me.

She always told me to trust the timing of my life, and I know she’s happy knowing she was right about Stryker alllll along 🤍🥂 🕊️

2025 was a year largely shaped by anticipatory grief and the fear of losing my mom. It was also a year filled with beautiful moments like celebrating Molly, her dream wedding coming to life and witnessing so much love around me.

What I know to be true is that great joy and deep grief can exist at the same time. One feeling can trigger the other, and honestly… it can be confusing to hold both. I’m incredibly lucky to have friends and family who remind me that it’s all ok.

I’m engaged (*screams*) and marrying the love of my life! We’re over the moon and so excited for the future ahead. Alongside that joy, I miss my mom and wish she could be here with me for these next chapters of my life.

Stryker took this photo of me holding our engagement flowers on NYE. While going through photos for this post, I came across the one of my mom holding flowers in almost the same way. It felt like a message from her saying that she is very much with me.

She always told me to trust the timing of my life, and I know she’s happy knowing she was right about Stryker alllll along 🤍🥂 🕊️

2025 was a year largely shaped by anticipatory grief and the fear of losing my mom. It was also a year filled with beautiful moments like celebrating Molly, her dream wedding coming to life and witnessing so much love around me.

What I know to be true is that great joy and deep grief can exist at the same time. One feeling can trigger the other, and honestly… it can be confusing to hold both. I’m incredibly lucky to have friends and family who remind me that it’s all ok.

I’m engaged (*screams*) and marrying the love of my life! We’re over the moon and so excited for the future ahead. Alongside that joy, I miss my mom and wish she could be here with me for these next chapters of my life.

Stryker took this photo of me holding our engagement flowers on NYE. While going through photos for this post, I came across the one of my mom holding flowers in almost the same way. It felt like a message from her saying that she is very much with me.

She always told me to trust the timing of my life, and I know she’s happy knowing she was right about Stryker alllll along 🤍🥂 🕊️

2025 was a year largely shaped by anticipatory grief and the fear of losing my mom. It was also a year filled with beautiful moments like celebrating Molly, her dream wedding coming to life and witnessing so much love around me.

What I know to be true is that great joy and deep grief can exist at the same time. One feeling can trigger the other, and honestly… it can be confusing to hold both. I’m incredibly lucky to have friends and family who remind me that it’s all ok.

I’m engaged (*screams*) and marrying the love of my life! We’re over the moon and so excited for the future ahead. Alongside that joy, I miss my mom and wish she could be here with me for these next chapters of my life.

Stryker took this photo of me holding our engagement flowers on NYE. While going through photos for this post, I came across the one of my mom holding flowers in almost the same way. It felt like a message from her saying that she is very much with me.

She always told me to trust the timing of my life, and I know she’s happy knowing she was right about Stryker alllll along 🤍🥂 🕊️

2025 was a year largely shaped by anticipatory grief and the fear of losing my mom. It was also a year filled with beautiful moments like celebrating Molly, her dream wedding coming to life and witnessing so much love around me.

What I know to be true is that great joy and deep grief can exist at the same time. One feeling can trigger the other, and honestly… it can be confusing to hold both. I’m incredibly lucky to have friends and family who remind me that it’s all ok.

I’m engaged (*screams*) and marrying the love of my life! We’re over the moon and so excited for the future ahead. Alongside that joy, I miss my mom and wish she could be here with me for these next chapters of my life.

Stryker took this photo of me holding our engagement flowers on NYE. While going through photos for this post, I came across the one of my mom holding flowers in almost the same way. It felt like a message from her saying that she is very much with me.

She always told me to trust the timing of my life, and I know she’s happy knowing she was right about Stryker alllll along 🤍🥂 🕊️

My mom believed deeply in reincarnation. She often told me she felt I had been her mom in a past life.

In one of our last moments together, while I was caring for her in the hospital, she said it again and we exchanged some of our last “I love you’s.” In that moment, it felt like our timelines blurred. I actually felt like I was her mom. The love that flowed between us was so deep, so expansive, it’s hard to put into words. I imagine it’s the kind of love a mother feels the first time she sees her baby. Maybe, just for that moment, our souls really recognized each other beyond this lifetime.

It tears me apart knowing my mom won’t be here physically when I become a mom. She won’t get to hold, dance, or sing with my babies like she has with my nieces and nephews. I used to feel so sad knowing she wouldn’t be able to give a Japanese middle name like she did for my sisters’ children, but in a lucid moment, she gave me a name (thank you, Aiko). And when the time comes, I’ll pass on a little piece of her love. But I have a deep knowing that she’ll still be with us. She’ll be in the music we share, the wind, the waves and the sun on our skin.

Through the grief, I can also feel a lightness. My mom’s spiritual beliefs taught us to trust that her soul is off on a new path and to know that we are eternally connected. We will always be together. She taught us not to be scared of death and rejoice that she can be free to fly.

And as always, she reminds us in her voice and her way to “Enjoy your life!”

Even though she said this was her last time on earth, if for some reason she ends up back here… I’d be honored to be her Mommychan.

All my life, she kissed my hand three times. This time, I kissed her hand three times. My way of sending her back into the universe, where I know we’ll meet again.

Love you in every lifetime 🤍 5/27, 11:33am

My mom believed deeply in reincarnation. She often told me she felt I had been her mom in a past life.

In one of our last moments together, while I was caring for her in the hospital, she said it again and we exchanged some of our last “I love you’s.” In that moment, it felt like our timelines blurred. I actually felt like I was her mom. The love that flowed between us was so deep, so expansive, it’s hard to put into words. I imagine it’s the kind of love a mother feels the first time she sees her baby. Maybe, just for that moment, our souls really recognized each other beyond this lifetime.

It tears me apart knowing my mom won’t be here physically when I become a mom. She won’t get to hold, dance, or sing with my babies like she has with my nieces and nephews. I used to feel so sad knowing she wouldn’t be able to give a Japanese middle name like she did for my sisters’ children, but in a lucid moment, she gave me a name (thank you, Aiko). And when the time comes, I’ll pass on a little piece of her love. But I have a deep knowing that she’ll still be with us. She’ll be in the music we share, the wind, the waves and the sun on our skin.

Through the grief, I can also feel a lightness. My mom’s spiritual beliefs taught us to trust that her soul is off on a new path and to know that we are eternally connected. We will always be together. She taught us not to be scared of death and rejoice that she can be free to fly.

And as always, she reminds us in her voice and her way to “Enjoy your life!”

Even though she said this was her last time on earth, if for some reason she ends up back here… I’d be honored to be her Mommychan.

All my life, she kissed my hand three times. This time, I kissed her hand three times. My way of sending her back into the universe, where I know we’ll meet again.

Love you in every lifetime 🤍 5/27, 11:33am

My mom believed deeply in reincarnation. She often told me she felt I had been her mom in a past life.

In one of our last moments together, while I was caring for her in the hospital, she said it again and we exchanged some of our last “I love you’s.” In that moment, it felt like our timelines blurred. I actually felt like I was her mom. The love that flowed between us was so deep, so expansive, it’s hard to put into words. I imagine it’s the kind of love a mother feels the first time she sees her baby. Maybe, just for that moment, our souls really recognized each other beyond this lifetime.

It tears me apart knowing my mom won’t be here physically when I become a mom. She won’t get to hold, dance, or sing with my babies like she has with my nieces and nephews. I used to feel so sad knowing she wouldn’t be able to give a Japanese middle name like she did for my sisters’ children, but in a lucid moment, she gave me a name (thank you, Aiko). And when the time comes, I’ll pass on a little piece of her love. But I have a deep knowing that she’ll still be with us. She’ll be in the music we share, the wind, the waves and the sun on our skin.

Through the grief, I can also feel a lightness. My mom’s spiritual beliefs taught us to trust that her soul is off on a new path and to know that we are eternally connected. We will always be together. She taught us not to be scared of death and rejoice that she can be free to fly.

And as always, she reminds us in her voice and her way to “Enjoy your life!”

Even though she said this was her last time on earth, if for some reason she ends up back here… I’d be honored to be her Mommychan.

All my life, she kissed my hand three times. This time, I kissed her hand three times. My way of sending her back into the universe, where I know we’ll meet again.

Love you in every lifetime 🤍 5/27, 11:33am

My mom believed deeply in reincarnation. She often told me she felt I had been her mom in a past life.

In one of our last moments together, while I was caring for her in the hospital, she said it again and we exchanged some of our last “I love you’s.” In that moment, it felt like our timelines blurred. I actually felt like I was her mom. The love that flowed between us was so deep, so expansive, it’s hard to put into words. I imagine it’s the kind of love a mother feels the first time she sees her baby. Maybe, just for that moment, our souls really recognized each other beyond this lifetime.

It tears me apart knowing my mom won’t be here physically when I become a mom. She won’t get to hold, dance, or sing with my babies like she has with my nieces and nephews. I used to feel so sad knowing she wouldn’t be able to give a Japanese middle name like she did for my sisters’ children, but in a lucid moment, she gave me a name (thank you, Aiko). And when the time comes, I’ll pass on a little piece of her love. But I have a deep knowing that she’ll still be with us. She’ll be in the music we share, the wind, the waves and the sun on our skin.

Through the grief, I can also feel a lightness. My mom’s spiritual beliefs taught us to trust that her soul is off on a new path and to know that we are eternally connected. We will always be together. She taught us not to be scared of death and rejoice that she can be free to fly.

And as always, she reminds us in her voice and her way to “Enjoy your life!”

Even though she said this was her last time on earth, if for some reason she ends up back here… I’d be honored to be her Mommychan.

All my life, she kissed my hand three times. This time, I kissed her hand three times. My way of sending her back into the universe, where I know we’ll meet again.

Love you in every lifetime 🤍 5/27, 11:33am

My mom believed deeply in reincarnation. She often told me she felt I had been her mom in a past life.

In one of our last moments together, while I was caring for her in the hospital, she said it again and we exchanged some of our last “I love you’s.” In that moment, it felt like our timelines blurred. I actually felt like I was her mom. The love that flowed between us was so deep, so expansive, it’s hard to put into words. I imagine it’s the kind of love a mother feels the first time she sees her baby. Maybe, just for that moment, our souls really recognized each other beyond this lifetime.

It tears me apart knowing my mom won’t be here physically when I become a mom. She won’t get to hold, dance, or sing with my babies like she has with my nieces and nephews. I used to feel so sad knowing she wouldn’t be able to give a Japanese middle name like she did for my sisters’ children, but in a lucid moment, she gave me a name (thank you, Aiko). And when the time comes, I’ll pass on a little piece of her love. But I have a deep knowing that she’ll still be with us. She’ll be in the music we share, the wind, the waves and the sun on our skin.

Through the grief, I can also feel a lightness. My mom’s spiritual beliefs taught us to trust that her soul is off on a new path and to know that we are eternally connected. We will always be together. She taught us not to be scared of death and rejoice that she can be free to fly.

And as always, she reminds us in her voice and her way to “Enjoy your life!”

Even though she said this was her last time on earth, if for some reason she ends up back here… I’d be honored to be her Mommychan.

All my life, she kissed my hand three times. This time, I kissed her hand three times. My way of sending her back into the universe, where I know we’ll meet again.

Love you in every lifetime 🤍 5/27, 11:33am

My mom believed deeply in reincarnation. She often told me she felt I had been her mom in a past life.

In one of our last moments together, while I was caring for her in the hospital, she said it again and we exchanged some of our last “I love you’s.” In that moment, it felt like our timelines blurred. I actually felt like I was her mom. The love that flowed between us was so deep, so expansive, it’s hard to put into words. I imagine it’s the kind of love a mother feels the first time she sees her baby. Maybe, just for that moment, our souls really recognized each other beyond this lifetime.

It tears me apart knowing my mom won’t be here physically when I become a mom. She won’t get to hold, dance, or sing with my babies like she has with my nieces and nephews. I used to feel so sad knowing she wouldn’t be able to give a Japanese middle name like she did for my sisters’ children, but in a lucid moment, she gave me a name (thank you, Aiko). And when the time comes, I’ll pass on a little piece of her love. But I have a deep knowing that she’ll still be with us. She’ll be in the music we share, the wind, the waves and the sun on our skin.

Through the grief, I can also feel a lightness. My mom’s spiritual beliefs taught us to trust that her soul is off on a new path and to know that we are eternally connected. We will always be together. She taught us not to be scared of death and rejoice that she can be free to fly.

And as always, she reminds us in her voice and her way to “Enjoy your life!”

Even though she said this was her last time on earth, if for some reason she ends up back here… I’d be honored to be her Mommychan.

All my life, she kissed my hand three times. This time, I kissed her hand three times. My way of sending her back into the universe, where I know we’ll meet again.

Love you in every lifetime 🤍 5/27, 11:33am

My mom believed deeply in reincarnation. She often told me she felt I had been her mom in a past life.

In one of our last moments together, while I was caring for her in the hospital, she said it again and we exchanged some of our last “I love you’s.” In that moment, it felt like our timelines blurred. I actually felt like I was her mom. The love that flowed between us was so deep, so expansive, it’s hard to put into words. I imagine it’s the kind of love a mother feels the first time she sees her baby. Maybe, just for that moment, our souls really recognized each other beyond this lifetime.

It tears me apart knowing my mom won’t be here physically when I become a mom. She won’t get to hold, dance, or sing with my babies like she has with my nieces and nephews. I used to feel so sad knowing she wouldn’t be able to give a Japanese middle name like she did for my sisters’ children, but in a lucid moment, she gave me a name (thank you, Aiko). And when the time comes, I’ll pass on a little piece of her love. But I have a deep knowing that she’ll still be with us. She’ll be in the music we share, the wind, the waves and the sun on our skin.

Through the grief, I can also feel a lightness. My mom’s spiritual beliefs taught us to trust that her soul is off on a new path and to know that we are eternally connected. We will always be together. She taught us not to be scared of death and rejoice that she can be free to fly.

And as always, she reminds us in her voice and her way to “Enjoy your life!”

Even though she said this was her last time on earth, if for some reason she ends up back here… I’d be honored to be her Mommychan.

All my life, she kissed my hand three times. This time, I kissed her hand three times. My way of sending her back into the universe, where I know we’ll meet again.

Love you in every lifetime 🤍 5/27, 11:33am

My mom believed deeply in reincarnation. She often told me she felt I had been her mom in a past life.

In one of our last moments together, while I was caring for her in the hospital, she said it again and we exchanged some of our last “I love you’s.” In that moment, it felt like our timelines blurred. I actually felt like I was her mom. The love that flowed between us was so deep, so expansive, it’s hard to put into words. I imagine it’s the kind of love a mother feels the first time she sees her baby. Maybe, just for that moment, our souls really recognized each other beyond this lifetime.

It tears me apart knowing my mom won’t be here physically when I become a mom. She won’t get to hold, dance, or sing with my babies like she has with my nieces and nephews. I used to feel so sad knowing she wouldn’t be able to give a Japanese middle name like she did for my sisters’ children, but in a lucid moment, she gave me a name (thank you, Aiko). And when the time comes, I’ll pass on a little piece of her love. But I have a deep knowing that she’ll still be with us. She’ll be in the music we share, the wind, the waves and the sun on our skin.

Through the grief, I can also feel a lightness. My mom’s spiritual beliefs taught us to trust that her soul is off on a new path and to know that we are eternally connected. We will always be together. She taught us not to be scared of death and rejoice that she can be free to fly.

And as always, she reminds us in her voice and her way to “Enjoy your life!”

Even though she said this was her last time on earth, if for some reason she ends up back here… I’d be honored to be her Mommychan.

All my life, she kissed my hand three times. This time, I kissed her hand three times. My way of sending her back into the universe, where I know we’ll meet again.

Love you in every lifetime 🤍 5/27, 11:33am

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